the Joy!

I can feel the nervousness rushing through the blood just beneath my skin and I see the music the voices and all the life there is out there which both frightens and makes me sit up brighter with black eyes looking up hopeful and wide they are happy head falling to the side and lips parted just a bit looking bright eyed and tearful lying scared looking up forward eyes closing imagine all the life coming towards me the choice the lack of it big dark ivory opportunity warm and inviting it chases me backwards I reach out fingers to stop the noise smashing at my eyes I remain for the joy that I find in the music which is life